Healthy B.P.M.

My guest blogger today: JM from Fiction Scribe and 100 pounds to go…..

Have you ever noticed that sometimes you might shove your hands in your pockets around people? Maybe you like to, like me, hide your hands in your sleeves.

That’s called body language, and hiding your hands means you don’t want to be noticed and/or you don’t want people looking at you.

It’s no wonder a lot over overweight people wear clothes that are way too big for them!

I think most people who are overweight know about the trying to hide behavior. We buy clothes that are a size or more bigger for us - especially when it comes to jackets/shirts/sweaters - because it’s easy to hide our hands, hide our guts, so on and so forth.

When I was younger, I was known to wear 3x, 4x, and even up to 5x shirts because I could hide in the fabric. In some brands, I had to wear a 2x to be even somewhat comfortable, but in
the majority of clothes I wore, the sizes were bigger than they had to be because I wanted to hide in my clothes.

Today, I made a step for the better.

I went to the shops with the intention of buying a light blue sweater I had fallen in love with at first sight. Light blue, a hoodie, a big pocket, and with pretty embroidery on the front. What more could I ask for?

I looked through the sizes, knowing I’d go with the biggest size. I wanted a 3x, and if I could find a 4x, well it would be my lucky day.

The light blue sweaters only went up to 1XL.

I pouted a bit and looked at the dark blue sweaters, knowing I wanted a light blue sweater and that I could fit the 1x.but I didn’t wear sweaters that small. Not me. Not overweight me.

By the time I’d gone through all the sweaters, the largest size was 2x in dark blue. I held it up to me, knowing it would be perfect. Big enough for “fat Spunk” to be comfortable in, but it wasn’t in light blue.

I looked at the light blue and the dark blue sweaters, knowing it would say something about my weight mentality depending on what sweater I would choose. No one else would know, but I would know. Buying the 2x would mean more of the same for my subconscious - I’m overweight and I need to try to hide that fact. Buying the 1x would mean that I am taking a positive look at
my weight loss. I would wear something my size. I would be making a statement that I’m comfortable wearing things that fit me.

Today, I’m very proud to say, I chose the 1x. I’m wearing it right now. It’s smaller than I’m used to with sweaters, but I think it looks pretty darn nice.

Score one for living healthier - physically, emotionally, and mentally.