Healthy B.P.M.

JM, the author of Fiction Scribe and 100 pounds to go describes how difficult facing a mirror can be for someone who is trying to lose weight…..

I was getting dressed to go out yesterday - something I actually do with a bit of pleasure now - and I stood in front of the mirror for a bit to look at myself. My pants are a little loose - just enough for me to notice. The shirt I was wearing was no longer a little too tight.

I thought for a while that I don’t look horribly overweight. I wondered what I would have looked like had I kept on gaining weight, which was easy for me to imagine because I know where my weight goes when I gain.

I didn’t like that track of thinking, so I tried to imagine what I’ll look like when I lose weight by pulling my shirt tight, running my hands down my sides to try to accentuate my curves, and even poking and prodding at my face a bit to see what changes might happen there as the weight goes.

It was a good experience for me, and I found myself smiling. I then realized what one of my problems in the past was.

I had always avoided mirrors for the most part because I didn’t like myself or the way I looked. Since coming to live with my husband and him showing me he loves me no matter what, I began liking myself a bit more. If someone could love me as much as he does, then there must be something worth loving.

It’s been a long road to learn to like myself, a road I’m still on, but I know that’s an element in getting healthy that I had been missing.

If you love someone, you’re more than willing to help them and get the best for them. If you don’t like someone, you’re far less inclined to do anything to better his/her life.

Do you see what I’m getting at?

One of the reasons I was never motivated to lose weight before is because I never liked myself all that much so I never really had a vested interest in my own good. Diet and exercise was torture because it was like bringing flowers and nice things to someone I really didn’t like every day.

So if you’re having a hard time getting motivated to start losing weight,try to consider it might be because you’re not particularly interested in you as a person or you might not like yourself all that much to keep going with a weight loss plan.